That's it - No More Excuses!

While driving to school yesterday for my last final of the semester - whoo hoo!!!!!! - I felt like I was going to fall asleep - literally! Why, you ask?? Because I was sitting dead still in this:

Ugh....Atlanta traffic! It's the worst, isn't it?? I look forward to either moving somewhere lovely and coastal or a laid back sleepy town where we own a nice piece of land that's our own little slice of heaven!

When I got to school, I had some time to kill so I had a banana (good brain food) and a large water! Did you know bananas have 105 calories?? Amazing, huh??

Have you ever had an out-of-body experience where you can hear yourself saying something and can hardly believe the words coming out of your mouth? I'm not talking about when you've drank too much and have become a Chatty Cathy - I'm talking about a regular ol' day.

Well....I found myself in this situation yesterday while having a conversation with my hubby about school. My grades aren't going to be the best this semester and I'm realizing that I have more pre-requisite classes to take than I had initially thought! In light of this (and more) I am going to spread out my classes a bit longer and will graduate a year later than we had originally thought - no biggie - just a pain!

Anywho, as I'm discussing this topic with him, I realize I am shifting some of the blame on him for my less-than-stellar grades this semester: "you take up a lot of my time; you always want me to go somewhere with you; you get upset when I'm not home, blah, blah, blah"....as the words were coming out of my mouth they made sense until he said to me "I'm not accepting the blame for your grades so don't even try that on me" and that's when it hit me: I have allowed him to make me feel this way - and what woman wouldn't want her hubby to want to spend time with her??? What the hell is wrong with me, I wonder? I guess I put this extra pressure on myself so I could procrastinate? It certainly hasn't been something I've done consciously, it simply just happened.

I am not the best student in the world but I will give something my all - especially if I want it bad enough - and I want this so bad, and I'm so good at the caretaking part of it! Yet on the other hand, I have found in my older age that I will self-sabotage before I let myself fail at something. So with that being said, I am going to give school everything I have - no excuses! Why make excuses? It just makes us feel crappy later. And I know I can do this - I know I can get accepted to the school of my dreams (Emory....Mercer...do you hear me??) and I'm not going to let anything stand in the way - not even myself.

So this leads me to wonder....is this why so many of us have trouble staying focused on ourselves, our workout regimens and a healthy way of eating? Do you self-sabotage? Do you make excuses? If you had to pick one thing in your life to change - no excuses - what would it be?

Hugs,

Heather